You look through me, and so do I.
I cannot smile even if I try.
Everyday I see you, I feel a mix of emotions.
Part sadness, part rationalizations.
I probably valued you far too much,
When you hadn't felt the same, as such.
Wonder if I feel hurt because I lost a friend?
Or was it because I couldn't spot the obvious trend?
Looking back at time, I can spot those mistakes,
Times when I thought I did 'whatever it takes'.
There were days when the sight of you,
Brought happiness, warmth and smiles anew.
Why are things so different now?
Was it because our egos didn't bow?
There was a time when I couldn't spot any flaws in you.
Why are they no longer hidden from plain view?
Was it I who changed, or was it you?
Why do I still waste time trying to rue?
Probably I was 'just another' for you,
How I wish I could say the same about you.
I know this is probably just a passing phase.
They say the pain from a wrecked friendship, never quite stays.
I wish there were something to bridge the yawning gap,
Wish this was just our friendship taking a short nap!
Why didn't you listen? Why didn't you talk?
Why didn't you come over, and just for once, knock?
Why can't I give this topic, a miss?
Why do I still lose sleep over this?
I don't know if you will understand what this cost.
But you'll always be the closest friend I lost.
